Tutorial with Ben

I had my tutorial with Ben about my proposals and he seemed concerned about the amount of work and the lack of stuff I was making for myself. I think this is really important because I don't want to lose sense of myself and what I want to make by constantly making things for other people. I was having a bad confidence day and brain vomitted a lot about how I didn't like my work. I'm aware that I've definitely taken on way too much, on top of the commissions and stuff for 504 I've been asked to do 3 more murals at East Parade Social so I'm not sure if I can fit that in. Its annoying because all of these commissions are things I really want to do and its too late for me to back out of any of them now its just a shame that theyve all fallen at the same time and its probably going to cause me quite a few stresses in the coming months. I'm going to treat these next few months as some life lessons and try my best to fulfil the commissions and then concentrate on myself and what I want to make and where I want my work to sit. I'm going to take on less this Summer and have a more self indulgent summer of illustrating for my own benefit which will hopefully help my confidence in myself and my work which will be vital going into third year. I NEED TO LEARN TO SAY NO and be a bit more selfish